Fearless

I am afraid

I am afraid of never being together

Of always making plans

Of never following through

Of always bleeding money

Of never building time

I am afraid

I am afraid of getting lost

Of never being found

Of walking till no one is following

Of looking ahead and seeing

the armies marshalled against me

Of never ever finding

comfort in the company I keep

I am afraid

I am afraid of being the hero

Of being forced to play the villain

Because I am so, so good at it

So, so fucking good at it

Of wearing the mask that sears

the ties that cry, the binds that brook no breaking

And none can see the tears run down

The hollow, empty joy when I am beaten down

Because the scars are cheap, heroes come easy

But, I can take the bruises, I can take the hurt

Because for every superhero there is a villain left unheard

So bring on the pain, bring on the curses

I can take it if it means the other children don't

No more fear