This is never what I wanted

This is never what I wanted

And I keep punishing the both of you

In ways none of us ever imagined

But, things keep vanishing

Between the cracks in communication

And I'm tired of it

I don't want to do badly anymore

But, I don't know other ways to be

I'm trying to learn and I keep failing

Over and over

All I ask is a space to call my own

And every day I am reminded I am not alone

But, I keep hurting

And I keep hurting others

I'm so tired of it

I don't want to do it anymore

So do whatever you think is best

I'll be in the ruins